When All There Is Left To Do Is Let Go

When all there is to do is let go.....Head to the earth, on my knees, in prayer, in tears, in gratitude. All at the same time. It's the most incredible thing to experience the spectrum of emotions in a single moment and be totally present to it.....some wise woman told me this morning that " Vulnerability is the ultimate ecstasy." 

I taught my last class this beautiful morning on this sacred land where we planted our roots for the last three years... literally to the day...I could hardly hold my tears back as I took in the epic scenery around me. Those trees I have spent so much time gazing at. Those sweet birds that would sing me song after song. My dear woodpecker friend knocking his beak upon the old eucalyptus. This magical occurring would happen every time we ended a chant.... all the nature sounds would stop for a moment.....and then resume their life. Oneness is the only way I can describe that feeling. 

I have shared the sacred teachings of Kundalini Yoga, meditation, chanting, ancient Divine feminine teachings and dance to hundreds on this land over the last three years. Those precious beings who have trekked this driveway week after week to find themselves in this beautiful nature haven.

 Some would come once and never again to be seen. Some were visiting from Australia, Sweden, England and had heard of this special little place and were elated to come. Others would come week after week, refusing to miss a class. And thus we build a really special little community up here. 

We would often hang after class sharing stories about our loves, our wisdoms and our pains over some chocolate and strawberries or pick oranges from the trees. All together we would sweat, pray, chant, cry and dance, leaving class feeling settled, elated and thankful that we had gotten together to figure out this thing called life using this ancient science of Kundalini Yoga. 

My relationship to the elements has deepened with so much richness and vibrancy since living here and teaching outdoors. I used to hear Akah talk about how the land would speak to him. It spoke clearly about what it would need. Sometimes I would  watch him light a fire and chant sacred native songs. And if I started spilling things around the house or dropped a glass, he would urge me to go make an offering to the land. And so I did. And so I learned about making offerings, asking for help and guidance from the nature spirits and the land.

Inside of that Venus transit in June 2012 I labored on that yoga deck for a good part of 30 hours whilst we waited for our beloved daughter to be born. On this land we birthed her and in the peach tree we buried a part of her placenta with prayers I still remember. Those may be some of the dearest memories to my heart. 

Sometimes you don't know what you got till it's gone. Like Joni Mitchell sings...I kind of feel like that about life. One of my practices is that I constantly remind myself that it could be over at any given moment. That allows me to relish in gratitude for what is. None of us know what is around the corner. Appreciating what we have is actually the gift of life that connects us to the miracle of the moment.

Even though in this moment, as we prepare for the U haul truck tomorrow, this wisdom speaks to me. There is a unknown feeling that my awareness is pressing upon me....the sacred space lives within me. And where ever I go, I shall create it. With my love, my creativity, with my fire, with my tenderness, and sometimes my aching heart. The magic of my family and the love we bring everywhere we go shall always, always be present. 
God is everywhere. In all things, in all places and in all people. 

Thank you to all of you have participated so richly in our time here on this land. The classes, the retreats, the gatherings. The space providers and the space holders. You know who you are. We love you. 

Let us gather at the 1909 in Topanga and keep growing together with enthusiasm.

Sahej is above making an offering to her peach tree. Aho!
Sat Nam ,
In Divine love



Mondays & Wednesdays | 9:30am-11am 
Kundalini Yoga & Meditation (All levels welcome)
With Live Music Chanting
Per Class: $18 | 4 class pass: $68 |10 class pass: $160

Address: 1909 North Topanga Canyon Blvd,

Topanga, CA 90290 | Easy parking in front and on street

More about Kundalini Yoga:
Kundalini Yoga as taught by Yogi Bhajan® is also known as the Yoga of Awareness; its focus is on self-awareness and delivering an experience of your highest consciousness. The technology of Kundalini Yoga as taught by Yogi Bhajan® is a science of the mind and body, to elevate the spirit, which has no boundaries, no discrimination. Therefore it is for everyone, universal 
and nondenominational.

 In the ancient tradition that is yoga, Kundalini Yoga is a householder path; that is, it has always been practiced by those with families and jobs as opposed to a renunciate's path of celibacy and removal from society, which was the usual path of a yogi.

The primary objective is to awaken the full potential of human awareness in each individual; that is, recognize our awareness, refine that awareness, and expand that awareness to our unlimited Self. Clear any inner duality, create the power to deeply listen, cultivate inner stillness, and prosper and deliver excellence in all that we do.